 BalqisIskandarMirza. BLOG NOT USED ! Adilah Ahtyqa Amirah Arifah Ayeen Azmina Dahliah Hazlindah Maam Mimi Marlisa Nanaa Syasya Syidah Yadh Zakiah December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 Don't remove credits. Basecodes:1 2 Layout: YourCrush |
>>> Being sad sucks.
Thursday, April 1, 2010 7:24 PMDear, why are you acting differently nowadays? My legs are hurt, my hands are hurt, my neck is hurt and my heart is hurt always. I hate myself and will never forgive myself for this. You guys wanna know whts wrong with me? Well, i`m kinda worried if this been spread by people. If i put private, lazy to find out people`s email. So i trust everyone out there. If its been spread thn the person who spread it gt no fcking life. Yesterday, aft home econs, we go for break before gg to class for our 30 mins sci test. Yeaah, saw him and his kawan. Thn idk wht to do, i`m always like this. I halfhalf hide thn go back, smile , thn somehow i hide. Haishh, balqis kau gile ah. Thn we go canteen thn Juairi passed by me and purposely asks where is sharizan. Asl kau tk tau nk cari pe? -.- Thn i just shudhup coz i`m listening to Irah's story, abt yams and sajs. Pandai2 cari tahu eh.Thn asyikeen and azyan came. Azyan told me wht happened in the library just nw. His kwnkwn pranked him tht i`m outside the library. Thn he look behind thn i`m nt there. Then he merajuk, awwwwwww. Kay shut it. Thn i like smilesmile. Head to class and do our kinda easy science test. Ms Nicole Yao is my form tchr and my sci thcr. Her lesson is fun but have to write lines at times. Aft finish, found dahliah at central square. Go sit at the benches thn he and his friends playing sepak takraw near there. I dnt think he even look at me. Thn at tht time i knew he`s mad? Guess so. Thn i became bored and 'pulled' dahliah to the canteen after some time begging her to go there. Thn we chatted and did for her the lines Ms yao gave her. Hoho. Adrianna , Ariffin and Kamarul came and chatted abt her and we and adrianna chatted abt another her. Pity them. Thn Adrianna also help with Dahliah's lines. Thn we so bored so went to 137 and chatted again. I blanjerh he so much. She promised to blanjerh me nxt time. Thn i went home to put my bag. Thn went down again. Jln2, boring to the core. Thn we go back into school. Thn sat at canteen , dahliah told me a very interesting story. Hahaha, cant believe he like you?! So cute.. Thn we chatted thn soccer boys finish their soccer training. Yeah, we went out and saw me and nvr look at me. Thn i no mood alrdy. So Dahliah wanna go home. Thn walked out, i carried her nicenice bag which i thn realised tht its blue. Went to bustop, hes there. Thn i guess whn he saw me he straight went into the bus. Urggh, bad mood percentage went up hundred percent. Thn i placed a fake laugh and smile on Dahliah. She might nt realised it. Went home and dad says , " Dah jumpe kwn? Puas?" And again, i placed a fake smile and walk into my room. On the computer and chatted with Maam Farhanah abt smtg shes stressed abt. Saxophonist must do pumping on Monday. Grrr. Bathed. And use the computer again and gt the fcking uh-oh noise frm my hp, a msg. Its him, well. Told you alrdy. He told me nt to msg him today. Not today, ystd. So i didnt reply coz i`m too weak to touch the phone any longer. After finishing my tears i logged out and went into my room - covering my face so tht dad wont see me crying and maybe lectured me aft tht. Thn i on-ed the radio and very stargely, almost all of the songs are sad songs. Urgh, weakweakweak. Thn i tried to be strong and started to plan on wht to bring fo gg to library today. Thn gt a msg frm Irah. Thn finish, i sharred my story with Asyikeen and she is the best... Thanks so much Asyikeen and Azyantee for making me stand up on my own. I love you eh. Did my project on Azerbaijan , find infos only. Thn went to sleep. My first ever time tht i could sleep without any gdnites frm somebody. I`m too weak tht i could sleep soundly. And now i`m in pain. And crying is nt the solution to this. Help me. I felt like as if i`ve been drowned. Like i`ve been stabbed. Like i`ve been dumped, when i`m nt. I`m sick and tired. And dnt feel like going out today but i must for the sake of peace and studies. Help me by cheering me up. Labels: i love you. |
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